A year and half ago I did hurt someone really bad and even I wanted to say I am sorry, was something inside of me that didnt let me do it. I am not sure what it was, maybe pride? (my bf keep saying i have too much pride and that is why i am wondering if this is what happened with me)
So, i finally say it, I say I AM SORRY for what i did to you. I am not expecting a reply because i know he doesnt want to talk to me anymore. What i most miss about him is our friendship.
I was in facebook the other day and i saw his picture where he is with a girl, i am truly happy for him, I know he deserves a nice girl who can give him the love that i couldnt give. I was not honest with him and trying to avoid hurting him I did lie and say i did love him. Just to recap a litle bit why i did it ( not trying to excuse myself) he had an opportunity to work oversees however he confesed to me his love and wanted to be with me so he was planning to stay instead to try to make it work. Of course i say , he should go because i was not sure if what i feel for him was love, he told me he will stay to make it work and he was sure i will love him. In the pressure of this, i told him to go and we will be talking while he is oversees. Althought, few months later, i met another guy who turned my world upside down, i started to hung out with him ( nothing special yet but some flirting) and while we were hunging out we took some pics that were put in my facebook profile so my overses friend saw it and got really upset. He started to cll me many times every day even at work which put in trouble twice. This made me really ungry and i decided not to talk to him for a while because he didnt let me explain, it was not talking at all, it was just listening what he says which was like a victim and me the bad girl ( when i didnt had nothing to do with the new guy). Later on, i need to confess i become the new guy's gf. The oversees guy started to call again but i put a stop on it and told him i was dating the other guy. I know i should tried to explain the whole situation to him and not let him think i was dating this guy when the pics were taken but i didnt.
LDR:
I find the hardest thing about LDR is the comunication side. I was online with my bf last night and while i was trying to make a point in something without being upset, he thought i was upset. Or when i was asking a question about if he contacted someone from his town , he thought i was questioning him and he didnt like it. My intention was not to questioning and i was not upset but he thought that.Also i was copying my message many times because the conexion was bad and i thought he was not getting my messages,but he thought i was impatient and upset. Now he says we will talk about this in person when is back in town ...
So, i finally say it, I say I AM SORRY for what i did to you. I am not expecting a reply because i know he doesnt want to talk to me anymore. What i most miss about him is our friendship.
I was in facebook the other day and i saw his picture where he is with a girl, i am truly happy for him, I know he deserves a nice girl who can give him the love that i couldnt give. I was not honest with him and trying to avoid hurting him I did lie and say i did love him. Just to recap a litle bit why i did it ( not trying to excuse myself) he had an opportunity to work oversees however he confesed to me his love and wanted to be with me so he was planning to stay instead to try to make it work. Of course i say , he should go because i was not sure if what i feel for him was love, he told me he will stay to make it work and he was sure i will love him. In the pressure of this, i told him to go and we will be talking while he is oversees. Althought, few months later, i met another guy who turned my world upside down, i started to hung out with him ( nothing special yet but some flirting) and while we were hunging out we took some pics that were put in my facebook profile so my overses friend saw it and got really upset. He started to cll me many times every day even at work which put in trouble twice. This made me really ungry and i decided not to talk to him for a while because he didnt let me explain, it was not talking at all, it was just listening what he says which was like a victim and me the bad girl ( when i didnt had nothing to do with the new guy). Later on, i need to confess i become the new guy's gf. The oversees guy started to call again but i put a stop on it and told him i was dating the other guy. I know i should tried to explain the whole situation to him and not let him think i was dating this guy when the pics were taken but i didnt.
LDR:
I find the hardest thing about LDR is the comunication side. I was online with my bf last night and while i was trying to make a point in something without being upset, he thought i was upset. Or when i was asking a question about if he contacted someone from his town , he thought i was questioning him and he didnt like it. My intention was not to questioning and i was not upset but he thought that.Also i was copying my message many times because the conexion was bad and i thought he was not getting my messages,but he thought i was impatient and upset. Now he says we will talk about this in person when is back in town ...
Training:
Time :23min
Distance : 1.55 miles
I found the pic of my bf's ex ( lol)
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