Relax weekend

I dont see stress anymore ... That's good!!! =)

This weekend overall was about doing school work, cleaning, training, watching movies and playing with Zoe. I feel relax and ready for the beginning of the new week.

Today i went to the park with zoe and i did jogging  for 40 minutes , it feels good

So,

Jogging:

time:40 min

distance: aprox 3 miles

LA Cancion

LDR:
Good song "If i were you"
I look in the mirror, with you in my arms
And I see a reflection of a smile that says," You believe in love"
Ans just for a moment, I drifted away but i couldnt stay 'cuz
A hint of love, a bit of fear, I am trying to say

If i were you, I wouldnt be here
If i were you, I would stay right where you are
I wouldnt come near this broken heart
Jurst turn around and leave here
And find someone who wont hurt you
Make sure that she still believes in love
'cuz i think my heart has given up
If i were you, i wouldnt be here
I am trying to protect you from the lies that you heart tells
Even though it says that you love me all i see is pain and misery
Seasons may change but i cant forget the day of old
My heart ached when you made me pay what your past relationships did for mistake, I said I will never love again
The days go by and I feel that you can make me happy
Time goes on and i feel that love is at my door
and thought i tell myself that you are the one who said those words before
Thought it hurts too much , i cant trust in love again

Training:
went for a walk/jogging
time :20 min
miles: aprox1.4 miles

Good Music found

Today after being tired of keep thinking about Peru (family) and my LDR i decided to relax and go for a walk/jogging with zoe. We had a good time and in my way back i had a nice surprise call. I got a call from a friend who i didnt talk for so long .... it was nice, he cheer me up and we promes to keep in touch from now on, hopefully i will be able to see him if he decides to visit Columbus or if i go where he lives.

LDR:
I found a nice song that talks about LDR:

Tamia - Long Distance Love:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O-HMHbE_Ar0

About love:

Tamia & Eric Benet spend my life( not any special message!!!):

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W0HPswno4zo&NR=1

This is another nice song about "me" lol ... well its kind of what i felt when i broke up with one of my ex's back in Peru:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VWlVAcYbOCg&feature=related

Training:

went for a walk/jogging with zoe

time :40 min

miles: aprox 3-4 miles

Re- energizandome

Today i feel pretty well and so much better from the past few days. I am trying to keep my mind busy so i dont let negative thought to come to my mind. Today, my plans are to do some treatment for my hair which has a litle of damage. Then i will do some homework, start cleaning my room and get ready for the game GO BUCKS!!!! It will be a good game with great people =) "My friends" Cara is going to take a special cake for us yummi !!!

Me siento mucho mejor hoy y tratando de mantener mi mente ocupada para evitar pensamientos negativos. Asi que me levante y empeze a hacer mis planes, Ahorita mi mami me esta ayudando a acondicionar mi cabello ya q estaba un poco danado. Luego are un poco de mis tareas, empezare a limpiar un poco mi cuarto y luego ir a ver el juego de american football de Ohio State univ. ( mi universidad) y Michigan el cual es el gran rival, es como Alianza lima y la U so a a ser un buenisimo partido =). Ire a casa de una amiga donde nos reuniremos entre chicas. Cara quien cocina riquisimo llevara una torta uyyy que rico!!!

LDR and Invitacion para mi querida familia =)

Querida familia,
animense a abrir sus propios blogs y dejarme comentarios a los mios =)
Va a ser una buena forma de comunicarnos !!!!

El dia de hoy:

Me siento mejor que anoche y con mas energia de poner mas de mi parte para no dejar que la tristeza me consuma =( y esque aun no quiera admitirlo , esto de la relacion a distancia con keith me esta chocando duro. SI esque no sabian todavia, keith acaba de irse para Canada, ahora esta en Vancouver visitando a su hermano y luego felizmente cambio su vuelo pa volver a columbus por dos semanas y luego irse a Montreal donde esta toda su familia. De alli no se sabe lo que pasara. El aun no sabe si se quedara en montreal o conseguira una trabajo en otro lugar. Por ahora el quiere viajar y ahorita tiene un trabajo como programador que le deja trabajar desde donde este y por lo tanto puede ir a donde quiera. Uno de sus planes es ir a San Francisco por par de meses. Tambien esta enamorado de Peru asi que piensa en algun momento ir a Peru por un mes por lo menos pa practicar su espanol el cual esta mejorando bastante como tambien su baile de salsa y tango. Tango?? pues si , hemos tomado una clase de tango y eso le fue muy bien a el =) y como sabe cuanto me gusta esto de la danza entonces alli se esta animando a bailar jajaja
el no me pide nada a cambio todavia aunque ya me imagino que me pedira aprender a jugar poker o programar con el ={ alli veremos. Lo que nos gusta a ambos es viajar y desde que estoy con el, ambos hemos viajado mas que cuando estabamos solos. Me encanta que el super flexible y nos acomodamos donde sea y buscamos nuestra diversion =) asi q en eso nos llevamos muy bien
bueno voy a volver a trabajar , espero Tia Caro, Tia Becki, Marco, mami .... escriban !!!!
chau

I just started signing in this website:Extra: http://www.fitday.com/fitness/Login.html
its really interesting ...

LDR ( Long distance relationship)
Also, i wanted to write something that i feel but i dint wanted to email it to the person ... its about the famours LDR:

I saw your email last night and to be honest i was debating myself between if i will feel good repling or not. It sounds bad to say this but hopefully you can understand how hard is for me to try for fiftth in my life this thing about LDR ( long distance relationship). I have been thinking about it and i found out that what its holding me to do this again (try be myself on this LDR) is that if after the famous month, you will not contact me or contact me less , then i will feel guilty becauase i gave a chance again and see the same results and again my heart broken. I also think that if i dont give it the chance maybe i will regret in the future thinking that maybe you were different but i dint put my part on this. So, i guess i am going to try for a litle bit but i need to be honest that its something permanently that push me back to do it =(

Today is my third day of training...
Run details:Time 5:30 pm
20 min run
1.3 mil

My favorite song

I just found an old song that i liked so much when i was in high school =)

Mi Historia Entre tus Dedos- Gianluca Grignani Lyrics:

Yo pienso que, No son tan inútiles lasnoches que te di.
Te marchas y qué, Yo nointento discutírtelo, lo sabes y losé.
Al menos quédate sólo esta noche,prometo no tocarte, estás segura,
ahiveces que me voy sintiendo solo, porque conozcoesa sonrisa tan definitiva,
tu sonrisa que amí mismo me abrió tu paraíso.
Se dice que con cada hombre hay una comotú,
Pero mi sitio -luego- loocuparás con alguno igual que yo, mejor,lo dudo.
¿Por qué esta vez agachasla mirada?
Me pides que sigamos siendo amigos¿amigos para qué?,
maldita sea!!! Aun amigo lo perdono, pero a ti te amo,
Puedenparecer banales mis instintos naturales.
(*)Hay una cosa que yo no te he dicho aún,
Que mis problemas, ¿sabes qué? sellaman: "tú".
Sólo poreso tú me ves hacerme el duro parasentirme un poquito más seguro.
Y si noquieres ni decir en qué he fallado,
recuerda que también a ti te he perdonado,
y en cambio tú dices "lo siento, no tequiero"
y te me vas con esta historia entretus dedos.
¡Qué vas a hacer!, busca una excusay luego márchate.
Porque de mí nodebieras preocuparte, no debes provocarme.
Queyo te escribiré un par de cancionestratando de ocultar mis emociones.
Pensando, peropoco, en las palabras,
y hablaré de lasonrisa tan definitiva,
tu sonrisa que a mi mismome abrió tu paraíso.

Good Bye again

I hate to say good bye to people but for some reasons seems like in all my life i have been saying it to too many people already specially to my boyfriends. I even started to think that this is a karma thing or a "sign"and i try to analyse if i need to learn something from it and maybe it will stop happening. I belive if someone that you love want to go then you should let them go, i always did that and support them in their decision to travel or move away but i leave heart broken. They promessed me to keep in touch, to try the distance relationship,etc and only works for 1 month ( 4 weeks), the funny thing is that its "ALWAYS 1 MONTH".
Today, i took to my bf to the airport. I thought it will be worst but i was and i am ok, i do support him and want him to be happy and if is mean to be, we are going to be together. But, i can not denied that i am still thinking on "1 MONTH" and then it will be over. Of course i dont want this happen but it always did happen to me. Oh and i forget to mention, after the 1 month i stop hearing from them until 1 year later when they come back with the famous "i love you" i want to be with you but then its too late. I never got a good explanation of why they stop contacting me, i wish i can understand that.
I am trying to keep it positive and think that my bf will be different and maybe i will learn with him what is the "GOOD" distance relationship ...
Today is my second day of training...

Run details:Time 7:30 pm

20 min run

1.3 mil

Back from Orlando and my first day of training for my 5K

I come back from Orlando this afternoon, i feel better after these days in a warm weather. I decided not to go to class because i feel really tired and its normal because i didnt had good sleep.
Anyway, even tired i start my training for the 5K. I decided to keep the promeses i do to myself so i took my tennis shoes and walked to the gym, now i feel really good =)

Run details:
Time 7:00pm
20 min run

Decisions Analyssis

The following is exactly how i felt and feel" and also i am indecisive person by nature

I have been so stressed out lately because I am waiting on something that is outside of my control and it is triggering something in my obsessive mind. But it has helped ranting about it. By Thursday I was a little more calm and I actually concentrate in school which is somewhat a return to normalcy. But seriously I hate the up and down roller coaster ride my emotions were giving me this week. If I was bi-polar you would have to have a round the clock suicide watch on me because I don't think I could handle it. One month of that was enough for me ." There are things I hate about job that make me question my decision: the cubicle, the politics, the lack of sunshine, the isolation, the backstabbing, just to name a few.

"One of the hardest things in life is trying to figure out which paths to go down. There are big decisions and small decisions that effect the direction that our lives will take everyday. How do you know when you are doing the right thing? I am a pretty indecisive person by nature. I love the middle of the road. In politics I am an independent, refusing to mold my opinions to that of any one party’s beliefs. With my friends I always try to be the peacemaker and avoid any real conflict. I even hate picking out a place to eat. (I once wasted my whole lunch hour because I couldn’t decide!)But in life you have to make decisions. If you aren’t happy with the way things are, you have to do something to change them. If you ignore problems, they get bigger. If you become complacent, you loose the joy in life. If you do the same thing over and over again you will get the same result.So what holds me back from making decisions? Fear. Fear of the unknown. Fear that I am not doing the right thing. Fear that this decision is the wrong one. Fear that I may regret this. Fear that they may not like me. Fear that I don’t really want this. Fear of being uncomfortable. Fear of being hurt. Fear of looking stupid. Fear of failure.I pray about things all the time. Pray that God will give me signs that point me in the right direction. But even when I pray I worry that I am praying for the wrong thing or for the wrong reasons. Am I being too selfish? Should I be happy with what God has already blessed me with? Should I not even worry about what is going on in my life and pray for the poor, suffering, sick, or lost souls that I may not even know?But I don’t think doubt is a bad thing. It makes you think about things more. You explore other options. Think about the rewards and consequences of each decision. But how do you find that balance between thinking things through and over-analyzing?Eventually you do have to make choices. You have to go out into the world everyday and be faced with decisions. Psychologist and philosopher William James said “When you have to make a choice and don't make it, that is in itself a choice.” I just hope and pray that the decisions and choices I make everyday are good ones and lead me down the right path!A peacefulness follows any decision, even the wrong one. ~Rita Mae BrownWhy is all this on my mind today you may ask? Well, I have only read one chapter in my latest book because I can not shut off my mind lately! I read one page and don't even know what I read because I was THINKING too much! Does this mean I have a decision to be made that will bring me peace so I can get back to escaping into other people's worlds instead of living in my own???

Good Bye Real World!

I have exactly 17 hours until I leave for Orlando and the best thing about this is I don't have to be in the office for a whole week! My workplace is crazy. Here is more drama than a spanish soap opera. To get away for a whole week may be necessary to maintain my sanity! So starting now I am letting all that go and I won't even give it a thought until I walk through those doors again next Tuesday. This break is going to help a lot and like every trip, i hope to get some good thought about my life.
I know i have been down all this couple weeks and with all of the thought i have been going throught but i finally decided not to keep thinking about it and instead make the decision and wait for what is coming.
I decided to finish my list of things i want to do before my 30's and things I already acomplished in my life since my early twenties so i will be posting those soon. I also started to get into this thing of blog and i am glad i found people with similar life experiences as me and people who share my ideas about the world. Its nice to know there is some great people lol ... just kidding
well, now i am in the dilema of if i should write my blog in english or spanish because this thing of trying to write in both is taking me time and that is something i need to be carefull with. So, here is two options:
1.- Only Spanish : So i can keep in touch with all my hispanic friends from home and also maybe my blog could make a difference to someone hispanic =)
2.- Only English: For all my english speakers friends including my bf ( specially now that i am going to start a distance relationship ...)
3.- Whatever i feel that day : So, maybe some people who care about what is going on in my life will take the time to tranlate to english or spanish if apply ( this could help people learn some spanish or english)

well, i hope i can get ideas about what is the best option ...

Estoy con el dilema si debo escribir este blog en ingles o espanol o como hacer? ya que aveces no puedo traducir todo lo que pongo en el blog =( . Estoy abierta por consejos.

Este dia la novedad esque estoy llendo para Orlando manana. Keith me regalo los pasajes y finalmente podre conocer el famoso Walt Disney =)

Dias grises

Aun estoy que trato de poner la energia positiva y darme animos a mi misma, tengo que confesar que estoy pasando por momentos dificiles. No quiero preocupar a nadie, creo fue suficiente con tenerla a mi mami y a keith hablandoles de lo que me pasa y tratando de encontrar soluciones.
Estoy que me digo a mi misma que todo esto pasara y las cosas que vienen seran mejores. No quiereo undirme pero en verdad creo que estuve en una depresion terrible las semanas pasadas. No tenia ganas de hacer nada, tenia ganas de llorar a cada rato sin saber de que, solo queria dormir y hasta queria desaparecer. Sin embargo he y estoy tratando de afrontar las cosas con fortaleza y recordarme a mi misma lo mucho que valgo.
Todo esto vino desde que me empeze a sentir muy mal en el trabajo y decidi renunciar. Con esa decision vino muchas interrogantes, la principal "el $". Al final toda esta situacion dio un giro inesperado; quite la carta de la renuncia por lo tanto "no renuncie" pero estoy pidiendo seis meses libres sin pago. Ahora tengo que esperar par de semanas antes que pueda obtener esto. Esas par de semanas empiezan el lunes, el cual estare trabajando para la nueva jefa del departamento donde yo era la coordinadora y ahora volvere sin mi cargo =( . Por esas dos semanas tendre que tragarme el orgullo y aguantar lo incomodo que me sentire por las preguntas de la gente. Son solo par de semanas es lo que pongo en la mente para darme animos y no sentirme mal.